Week 39 and 2 days- 

It’s early morning, about 6 am, I am laying in bed awake and hungry. Very hard to wrap my mind around or understand that there will be another person with us in just a few days time. I hope she’s happy, and healthy. I suppose those are the qualities we all look for. But truly, if she can be those things, it would seem to diminish all the many other hardships and confusions. 

I realized that there is a very good chance she’ll love the things that Erik and I love if we show her we love them and how we love them from the beginning. It’s a fascinating question—what do I love that I want her to love?  What do I love demonstrably?